“21 NA AKO!” yeah, yeah. Tomorrow i will be turning 21. Fully dalagita na me, but by age, not by looks and mind. still, im a baby, ” baby bubuot” or “baby damulag”. People didn’t see me as a 20 years old person but rather a high school kid, around fifteen or sixteen years old. Maybe that’s why i cant get a nice guy with the same my age or older than me. I’m always trapped in a situation where high school guys luring around me. “I JUST DON’T GET IT!” I don’t want to be accuse of child abuse or child molestation. DUH! that’s is insane. why would i hook up with a guy younger than me, you tell me.
Anyways, last time my dad asked me where would i go on my birthday. i gave him my options. so, i came up with…
- GO TO A STRIP CLUB! yepeee! my dad was just cracking out when he heard it. he even asked me if i will be one of the people who will put money on the strippers briefs. I said to him, “i won’t be the one who will put the money, but i will be the one who will strip the cloths they have on them”. that time, when i spoke to my dad, i was literally serious.
- TOUR IN EUROPE. i really want to go out the country. i really want to go to the Philippines but then the air-fair is too expensive and the money you’ll spend is worth it. seen i went already in Argentina by my self last 3 years ago, i was looking for the experience where no one is following you and no one is telling you where to go. i better drag my sister with me and let her experience the feeling of “freedom to explore”.
- BOOK AN OVERNIGHT STAY IN A HOTEL IN MANHATTAN, ALONE. i really want to be alone, away from home when ever i have my birthday. if i can’t escape the country i rather be in a place where i could enjoy myself, ALONE. every time i am bored i always go to Time Square. just strolling on the busy street, watching the tourist, their expression, the excitement. it is really a relief seeing them happy and satisfied on things they saw. sometimes i go watch Broadways, go watch movies. man, i really have fun in Manhattan all alone. if i would have someone with my it should be my sister. both of us are inseparable.
- ESCAPE TO CONNECTICUT. my sister and i plan to go to Connecticut. take the train in grand central and head straight to CT. we don’t know where we exactly are going. but the more innocent we are in a place, the more excitement we will have. “explore, explore…”
By the time i step into my world of adolescence. little by little i will gain my freedom. freedom to go where i want to go, freedom to do what i want to do, and own what i want to own. I’m a good daughter so, daddy don’t worry about me. i will take good care of myself as an adult. just let me explore this harsh world and let me fight my battle of responsibility. let me have my way for now, and if i can’t handle the pressure your eldest will still come to you and ask your help. coz right now, i want to learn from my mistakes, and i want to solve it on my expenses. and mom, i know we haven seen each other for almost 6 years. “i am already a lady, a grown up lady”. the last time you saw me, i was just 16 years old. now im 21, the stubborn daughter you always have is still a stubborn one. don’t worry i am still me. the ice, that you nurture and molded is still the adult ice. thanks mom for making me a good daughter and a good person. i really owe you everything that i am and everything that i became.
WELCOME 21!
